Hanging in

I'm finally done with jury duty. It took 2 1/2 weeks. It was a civil case, so there was no clear cut winner. No guilty or innocent. We ended up awarding a total of 1.6 million to ne of the sides. WOW.... 1.6 million. I could have all the plastic surgeries I wanted... and so could hundreds of my closest friends!!!! 1.6 sounds like a lot... but they were asking for over 8.

Anyway. Still frustrated. Still not losing. I will lose a pound or two, then gain it back the next day or two. I don't know what to do. I am doing everything I should. I am exercising, eating right, taking my vitamins and drinking my water.

500 calories did not work for me. All it did was mess up my blood pressure.

800 calories has not been working. All I have been doing is yo-yo'ing in my weight.

1000 may do the trick.... if I can manage to get that much in. It seems my restriction has finally started. I have something small to eat (or, in the case the last couple of days, a protien drink) and I am so not hungry again. It is getting to be a challenge to get in all my water. I am so full I feel like I will barf if I drink my water.

Right now I am going to try to stick to 2-3 protein drinks a day (trying to get near 100 grams of protein) and perhaps 1 small meal (though I may have to stick it in my ear to get it in. LOL ;)

Hoping this works. Everyone keeps assuring me the weight will come off. I'm not so sure.

All I can keep thinking is that I am paying $500 a pound at this point.

I know it's ridiculous to feel this way at 11 weeks out, but I already feel like a failure.

Guess I just gotta keep on keepin on.

Later....