Had my 3 month appointment

I don't know why I am suprised, I expected them to say just what they said: "You are doing fine, you are losing weight at a good pace" Really?????? 20 pounds in 3 months is a good pace?? I would soooo hate to see a bad pace. Of course, they are counting in the 7 pounds I lost pre op. I am not.

I am a bit peeved. Before surgery I asked both the surgeon and the nurse who heads the bariatric program if my previous surgery was going to affect my weight loss. They both told me no. I was told the normal, expected rate of loss is 3-5 pounds a week. Now, of course, since I am losing so slow the story has changed. Now it's: "Well, with a revision you do not lose as quickly. Generally after a revision you lose 1-2 pounds a week"

WTF???? Are ya kidding me??? I know it is wrong to think this way, but all I can think of is the $10,000 co-pay. At this point I am at $500 a pound.

On the somewhat positive side, all my blood tests came back perfect. In a year and a day my total cholesterol went from 256 to 119!!!


Here are my numbers:


Test 3/15/2011 11/15/2011 3/16/2012
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Cholesterol 256 175 119
HDL 48 54 50
LDL 160 82 49
Triglyceride 240 199 103
Cholesterol, non-HDL 208 121 69


So, at least that is a good thing.

Just have to hang on in and believe it will happen..... right?

Later....

Hanging in

I'm finally done with jury duty. It took 2 1/2 weeks. It was a civil case, so there was no clear cut winner. No guilty or innocent. We ended up awarding a total of 1.6 million to ne of the sides. WOW.... 1.6 million. I could have all the plastic surgeries I wanted... and so could hundreds of my closest friends!!!! 1.6 sounds like a lot... but they were asking for over 8.

Anyway. Still frustrated. Still not losing. I will lose a pound or two, then gain it back the next day or two. I don't know what to do. I am doing everything I should. I am exercising, eating right, taking my vitamins and drinking my water.

500 calories did not work for me. All it did was mess up my blood pressure.

800 calories has not been working. All I have been doing is yo-yo'ing in my weight.

1000 may do the trick.... if I can manage to get that much in. It seems my restriction has finally started. I have something small to eat (or, in the case the last couple of days, a protien drink) and I am so not hungry again. It is getting to be a challenge to get in all my water. I am so full I feel like I will barf if I drink my water.

Right now I am going to try to stick to 2-3 protein drinks a day (trying to get near 100 grams of protein) and perhaps 1 small meal (though I may have to stick it in my ear to get it in. LOL ;)

Hoping this works. Everyone keeps assuring me the weight will come off. I'm not so sure.

All I can keep thinking is that I am paying $500 a pound at this point.

I know it's ridiculous to feel this way at 11 weeks out, but I already feel like a failure.

Guess I just gotta keep on keepin on.

Later....