Not happy

So..... My fifth week and I lost... Nothing. Nada. None. Yup, a big goose egg. I am so very unhappy about this. I have been following what I should do. I have not eaten anything I shouldn't. I have exercised (as much as my feeling so crappy will allow). I have constantly stressed over every bite I have put in my mouth. I have charted. I have drunk all my water.

Guess I just gotta stop stressing over the weight. I have to believe it will come off. While this is so much more easier said that done, I will try.

It'll happen when it happens... right???

That's about it for today, just wanted to whine a bit.

Later....

Went to see the nurse yesterday

My first post op appointment other than drain removal, isn't until 3 months (how crazy is that??) I went to the surgeon at 1 week to get my drain out, but after that it is 3 months.

Anyway, still not feeling well. Same as always... when I stand for any length of time I feel like I'm going to pass out. My head gets swimmy and hot, my chest gets tight and I get a bit short of breath.

And..... my tounge itches.

I googled tounge itching and vitamins and came up with B12 deficiency. I called the insurance co/bariatrics department yesterday and spoke to a nurse. I had told her a week and a half ago I wasn't feeling well. I told her I'm no better, also about my itchy tounge (just sounds so funny every time I say or type that). She told me they wanted me to come in.

I explained to the nurse I saw that this is normal for me. Any time I don't get enough calories for any length of time (even 2-3 days) I get this way. I spent an entire pregnancy this way. Wasn't hungry, lost 42 pounds.

She ordered a whole bunch of blood tests on me. They were all ordered STAT and I haven't heard back yet, so assuming all is well.

They did some blood pressures on me. Laying, sitting and standing. They steadily went down while my heart rate went up. My sitting was 129/82 with a heat rate of 72. My standing was 109/70 with a heart rate of 133!!!! Natalie (the nurse) feels that is is my BP meds doing this and told me to stop taking them. She figures I'll be fine by tomorrow. I doubt it. I suspect I am going to have to just tough it out for a couple more weeks when I get more calories. I am at week 4, at week 6 I will be going up from 500 cals a day to 1,000.

Pretty sure I'll survive til then ;))

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Week 3, Only 2 pounds. Really????

Hate to be a whiner here, but How the heck can someone eat less than 500 calories a day and not drop off the weight?? It's been 3 weeks since my surgery and I've only lost 10 pounds. I know they say that if you have a revision from one surgery to another you lose slower/less (though my surgeon says this isn't so). But still... this is ridiculous. I had 10 months between surgeries. Figured my body had plenty of time to "bounce back".

I am feeling like heck. So weak I can barely stand for any length of time (we are talking here like more that 30 seconds or so). My head gets fuzzy, my heart pounds and my chest hurts. Feel like I'm gonna pass out.

Just want to feel better. I have 2 more weeks of this very limited intake, then I will be converting to solid foods (on soft foods now) and more calories. Hopefully I will feel better then.

Oh well. Enough whining for now.

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Been hitting the bike

.... Thankfully it hasn't hit back yet ;)


Been riding the stationary bike 15 minutes 2 times a day. As exercise goes, it's a start. Would like to ultimately get my own bike to ride outside, but for now this one is getting the job done (not to mention I need to be in much better shape to ride outside on the hills here).

Time to exercise.

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Happy New Year

Hoping everyone a wonderful new year.

This past year has been kind of crazy. I have had 3 fairly large surgeries. My band removal in February, a knee replacement in July and the bypass in December.

Lost my grandmother and my good friend Renee's husband, Paul. Rest in Peace, you two.

Looking forward to a happy, thinner 2012.

Happy New Year!!!!

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Doing well

Been enjoying my 2T of food at a time, though I am still a bit hungry after eating. Got my drain out and was not all that happy about my loss since I saw the surgeon... 15 pounds. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, but....... 2 of the people I was in class and the hospital were there, and they lost more (25 and 30 pounds). Makes me feel behind. I have been doing everything right, so there is no real reason to feel this way. Just my own competitive nature.

I have been feeling too week to exercise, but once I get done posting this I am going to get on the exercise bike. Think I'll start with 10 minutes. As long as I don't pass out I will do another 10 in a couple hours. Would like to work up to 30 minutes of continuous exercise. Also gonna break out the Wii fit.

The surgeon told me he figures that by summer I will be in the 100's. I can't imagine that. Me?? in the 100's???? I think the last time I was in the 100's was junior high!!! What a rush that will be.

Just need to keep on keeping on.

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Surviving

Well, it's been a week since my surgery. Starting to feel better, the pain is almost gone. The surgery went well, the doctor said the bypass portion went well, but the old hernia mesh left some major scar tissue, and he had some issues with working around that.

I spent 2 might in the hospital and came home with LOTS of pain killers. I think someone made a mistake. I have the feeling I was not supposed to get 200 dilaudid. They will last me for years, since I have not taken any in over 24 hours.

I am a little dissapointd, I have only lost about 4 pounds since surgery (of course, I gained back the 7 pounds I lost on the pre surgical diet while in the hospital) So all in all I am down 11 pounds since my 3 day pre-diet.

Today I get to start eating a bit!!! I can have 2 Tablespoons of cream soup, or mashed potatoes, yogurt or pudding. Yayyyyy.. real food. I am supposed to have 5 meals today. I can also have 4 oz of a protein drink or something along those lines. I had 4 oz of sugar free Carnation instant drink this morning. I have been a bit hungry on occasion, but nothing major. The difficult thing for me is going to be getting in all my water (this was an issue with my band too) It is hard to get in water a couple ounces at a time and drink a full 64 ounces!! Just have to do what I can.

That's about it foe now, will post more soon.

Later....